"you pissed people off into leaving you behind…"

Maybe it’s really true…

I thought this time that I am finally free…. I thought there’s no reason for me not to be happy and no reason for me to stop doing things that I really wanna do…. but I don’t know…. what’s happening to us? I think it’s really true that LOVE is not just like a fairytale that always have a happy ending… Was it just a dream? Are you for real???

I guess I was just a fool…. or maybe I was just so stupid to believe that YOU and I can get the chance to be together…. If you only knew how much I love you…

Before I was so afraid that I might just wake up one day and you will just walk away…. but it seems like you’re gonna run away soon because I pissed you off… Did I really pissed you off?? I want you to know that I have no intention to do such things…. maybe I was never really good at loving… and I was never really good at explaining… All my life I was waiting for someone like you… but I was so stupid that I messed up everything just like that… Now I deserved to be ALONE again… But I want you to know that all I wanna do is to be with you and love you with all my heart… but I guess it will never happen….

This life is so unfair… so unfair that I didn’t get the chance to be with you even just for one second…

I just wanna hold you in my arms so tight that I will never let you go… never… because I love you so… you mean everything to me… you mean everything to me baby….

Maybe it’s much better to love you in silence… for in silence I’m so free to love you endlessly… I’m so sorry if you’re getting hurt because of me…